“No, I don’t wanna.” I whine.
I feel like a toddler who isn’t cooperating at nap time. A nap is probably exactly what is needed and will be good for me in the long run. However, it’s not what I want to be doing. I don’t want to miss out on the way I want life to be.
Life has never looked like it does right now. Everything that seems unfamiliar and normal is gone.
And I am like a child who has had her toys taken away. I’m kicking and screaming in an attempt to get my way. I don’t want to let go of my busyness, my routine, my work-aholism, my schedule, my list, etc.
Recently, I had the opportunity to play with a vivacious three-year old. While handing her a plastic piece of chicken on a miniature plate, I said, “Here’s your food, sweetie.” She abruptly stopped and looked at me with all seriousness, “I’m not sweetie, I’m a big girl.”
I heard another friend say in conversation about the present circumstances, “Don’t tell me what to do, I’m grown.”
These sentiments mirror how I feel. I’m a big girl. I’m grown. I want my way.
I read a quote that reminded me of this, “Whatever action you take in a state of inner resistance will create more outer resistance.” When I refuse to live in acceptance, I am only causing harm to myself and others.
Today, COVID-19 is presenting me with an opportunity, a gift. The question is simple: Am I willing to open the gift of staying in the present and accepting life as it is being offered to me?
To embrace the opportunity to slow down. To re-evaluate what is important and hold loosely to all of the rest. To truly show compassion and generosity. To embrace faith over fear. To think outside the box and see life from a new perspective.